The Story Behind My Blog’s Name

Few months ago, when all the pregnancy stuff started kicking in, I felt that my life was suddenly out of control. I had this roller coaster of emotions and I couldn't get a grip of what's happening to me. One moment, I'm happy and laughing. After some time, biglang malulungkot at iiyak for no reason. Oh yes, I hear you. Parang loka loka lang.

Nakakatamad din kumilos! I was in bed the whole day. I woke up so late that I didn't even get to kiss my husband goodbye before he leaves for work. Nagtampororot tuloy ang lolo nyo! Di ko man lang daw maibuka yung mata ko para mag-goodbye. Haaaayst...

And worst of all, there's morning sickness. I couldn't eat. I couldn't even bear the smell of some ulam. I didn't want to leave the house because I had lots of "barfy sessions" in a day. Every time I look at the bathroom mirror after each barfy session, I see the most pathetic version of myself. Tapos iyak na naman. Ayyy...Kawawa.

My self-confidence was at an all time low and my optimism was lost.  It was hard for me to start on my life-after-corporate plans. Nawalan ako ng gana. Ang hirap mag-focus. My head was crowded with thoughts like:

Ano ba talaga ang gusto kong gawin? 

How can I work on my plans now that there's a baby in my tummy?

 Am I ready to be a mom? 

Are we ready financially? 

What if the business plans don’t work out? 

What if I couldn’t even start a business and the emergency fund dries up? 

Did I make the right decision of leaving my job? 

This drama lasted for months until...

Enter the husband. Cliché as it may sound but he really brings out the best in me.  All I needed was to hear him say:

“You can do it!  You’re the dragon lady remember? You get what you want because you work for it.”

Boom!  I saw the light!

Little by little, I picked up where things left off.  With constant encouragement from hubby and renewed strength from our daily devotional prayers, I regained my optimism and saw things differently.  I got so inspired to work on the things I’ve been putting off. Ang naging mantra ko:

“You’re the dragon lady. Work for it. Work for it. Work for it!”

And so...I'm back with my old enthusiastic self. 

I’m now chasing the life I always wanted. I’m thinking, hoping and praying for only the best. I’m looking forward to a blissful life of a work-at-home wife and mom. I’m working for it. I’m crossing things out from my to-do list and that feels great.

To remain motivated, I’m documenting my journey through this blog.  I named it “The Happy Dragon Lady” because I want to be always reminded that....

A dragon is strong and fierce. I’m the dragon lady, a kick-ass woman.

I am happy because I chose to be.

Yan ang kwento mga kaibigan. Bow. J

Yey! My first blog post!

Hello there! I’m C-Ann, a full-time wife and a soon-to-be mom (I’m on my 23^rd week as of this writing and due for ultrasound next week. I’m sooooo excited to know if my baby is a boy or a girl! ).

Before surrendering myself to a life-long house arrest, I was chained to an office desk for 5 years. I worked for one of the “best place to work” IT companies and did some business operations and resource management stuff. If you’d ask why I resigned? Well... it’s not them, it’s me (parang nakikipag-break lang sa boyfriend hahaha).

But seriously, I had no major issues whatsoever. Something just didn’t feel right. I just couldn’t see myself working for other people and staying 10 years++ in a corporate job. Even before I got married, I always dreamed of becoming a full time housewife. And so, the dream became a reality... thanks to my super loving husband!

One of the things I love to do is writing. Kahit ano lang, basta may maisulat. During my high school days, sinusulat ko sa mga scratch paper ang mga angst ko sa buhay. It somehow helped me get through because the “bigat sa dibdib” feeling suddenly disappears when you write it all down.

When I was in college naman, I had this weird habit of writing/doodling while taking exams (especially in those super brain-draining ones!). It was so funny because my seatmates always assumed that I’m super prepared for the exam dahil ang dami ko daw sinusulat. Others, however, threw odd glances my way as if they’re telling me, “Ba’t ka nag-e-essay eh problem solving naman tong exam?” hahaha! But would you believe? I got a bonus point in one of my exams just because I wrote a mini essay of some sort (or was it the lyrics of a song?) in my answer sheet! My professor even wrote a message. I guess I made her smile while she’s checking my answers. J

Then here comes blogging. I really wanted to do this for so long but I was too caught up with a lot of things and I wasn’t really sure of what to blog about. Way back 2010, I attended a seminar/workshop sponsored by a group of Master of Technology Management students in UP and I learned that you can make lots of money out of a blog. So at first, my mind was focused on the money-side of blogging. I thought of it as a means of an additional income stream that will eventually free me from my corporate job.  Being the “mukhang-pera” that I was, I searched for successful blogs in the internet hoping to get some tips, listed down possible topics that will generate high traffic, created a blogger account, but sadly...never created my first blog post. The words just didn’t come out because I wasn’t writing from the heart, I was driven by the “ka-ching ka-ching”.

Lesson learned: It’s not all about the money!

Okay, fast forward to the present. Since I’m confined at home and I’ve been busy lately google-ing for baby stuff and tips for first time moms, I was able to visit a lot of blogs and got tons of inspiration from all of the active moms in the blogosphere. They gave me a whole new perspective about blogging. Their passion emanates from their writing and I guess it rubbed on me that I suddenly felt the urge to write and start a blog.

This time, it’s not about the money (Weh?! Di nga? Nicki Minaj ang peg!). I now find blogging as a platform for sharing discoveries, giving helpful advices and building relationships with like-minded individuals. I also loved the idea that you can influence and inspire others through your blog. I, for one, can attest to that. I feel more confident in going through this journey of wifey/mommyhood knowing that I can get a lot of help from all the bloggy moms out there.

So there it is folks! The Happy Dragon Lady blog is born. Check out my next post to know more about the happy dragon lady. J

Aja!